Hello internet, been a while. So shall I fill you in before I fully explode? So I'm close to finishing my 6th month at work and my enthusiasm has not increased since the last time I logged in here... not one bit. Everyday there's this urge to just flip everyone off and say "That's it I'm done. Fuck all of you." but the problem is I've been handing out resumes and portfolios to various companies and well, I haven't had much luck with any of them. I'm about to reach my breaking point. Every time I go I hate it more and more. I keep telling myself that I should see the bigger picture, that somehow it will make it all irrelevant and easier, BUT DAMN I'M LIKE 2 YEARS AWAY FROM ALL IT.  I should be grateful that I have this job and that I have a steady paycheck every month, but day after day I can feel that the love and passion I have for design is slowly fading. I used to be so enthusiastic about everything now I just find it draining to be honest.  And I hate that I hate what I'm doing.  And being out there has opened my eyes on how people can be so shady, my mother always keeps telling me that I should focus on my work and not let them affect me, but hell-Even when I keep to myself they still have a problem with it. I miss uni terribly, I miss my friends, I miss having people around me who continue to inspire me to keep going.