It's 1 in the morning, and I'm trying to finish a paper due on saturday, as I walk up to the router to turn the wifi on, I see my dad studying in his usual spot reading thick law related books, and memorizing. God I cant even imagine the things he has to remember. To think he's about to turn 45 next year and he's still trying, trying to pass the bar exam, I guess to not let the people around him down. If he passes the bar he'd be 46 and to start building a new career at 46 is just mind boggling to me. I'm getting older too, a year shy from graduating college. scared shitless of the world ahead. Mostly scared that I wouldn't live the life that  I've always wanted.  To be stuck in a 9-5 job inside a cubicle is just horrifying to me.